Love

The first time I saw U I never thought

We would be so much in what we are

I couldnot talk the first night we met

Just sat listening how crickets talked more than we did

Since then, There are part of things that havent changed

There are part of things that have

I am still as guarded as I was before

But there is someone now who understands.

I still whine n nag enough for an irritated office staff or waitor

But now  it doesnt piss u off, u would rather laugh it off later

Now I know ur dark secrets and u know mine

N the best part is it feels so right

I m not scared that u might not keep it 2 urself

Cuz I know that u always will.

But I know its not something as big as Love

Or maybe its much bigger than that

Everyone’s says I m rushing up, I should fear gettin burnt

But their city is as dull and cold as they are

and catching fire means we would be like fireworks

just a little more attractive dancing closer to heaven!

U have the keys to my heart

U r the person evry song sings of

U got me glowing blushing everytime

U made these sleepy nights shine,

I remember the smell of the night at 1:28

Even though Its been so long u have been away

I still remember the smell of ur perfume dat filled ur car

So how do u think we r living any far?

But I hope u  know its not something as big as Love

Or maybe its much bigger than that

U can ignore their dumb suggestions

With their wasted breath on There’s enough electricity to notice fireworks!

Little Big Issues

so do i owe u, 4 all dose damned emotions i felt or shits i realized? 

like knowin what xactly a song meant wid "i cant breathe 2night"

or when someone said they r scared of how they would get thru

or when people felt they had done shits they wanted 2 undo.

Now I know y U didnot understand

when I explained what all i felt

when I felt u had cheated

when I heard U were abt 2 go

when I knew U believed it

when I said there was nothing more

Dont u think I would like to forgive u?

Cuz I know, how bad I wanna be with u!

But how 2 forget that girl? who drowned all da nights

cuddled in da corner of her bed, sleepless n blind

cuz there was just too much water in her eyes

2 c what u were doing or 2 even realize

All da feelings she felt :

,ofcourse u cant even name them,

she was scared of da dark

she had a broken heart

she felt huge loss of self-respect

sense of despair n loneliness

apathy 2wards everything else n loss of appetite

not listening to songs cuz every song made her cry

wish 2 call or text u, constantly

hoping it was u everytime her phone would ring

being hurt n depressed massively

thnkin how u myt meet her next n wot she wud say n rehearsing

Then U say, "Isnot Love about forgiveness??"

Uh! Love, 4giving is easy, 4getting aint!

U ask me 2 reminisce our happiness

but boy there were none U gave!!

Mirror in the dark

You say U love Me,& I stay quiet

I stare at U, This time I wont fight

I know It has hurt U, but think about  the times U have hurt HER???

She could have lost faith in God, Well! u wont even remember.

I know u r shocked 4 I loved u always

N now I look so over that phase

But then I have good memory

N I don’t need 2 b reminded of how she used 2 b!

How she killed dose endless sleepless nights

With the moon n her tears

I don’t need to be reminded that some nights

Even the moon did not turn up!!

But now  I know u love me, n r completely besotted by me

But WHAT DO I DO???

I got fuckin good memory of HER!

Cuz I have seen her talkin 2 the Moon

Livin her life like a dumb abandoned dog

I have seen her SO close –

That I could count the unlimited red nerves in her eyes

I have observed her so much that I knew

She could break down every moment u walked by

I have seen her jaw muscles trying

2smile when someone taunted of u

I have seen how bad she wished

to get u or get over u

N now u say u fuckin like me like no one would do

But my goddamn memory kicks my ass when I think of u

Cuz I have seen her sittin all alone

Wondering - has the moon “too” gone??

I have seen her so much- sometimes with tears , sometimes with wishes

N I have seen u , callous always taking her for granted

N then u temme u have changed

N u love me with ur heart in ur hand

But do u notice Its too late for u 2 come back

I maybe dat sad girl in pain

But I am not da same!

I m his, n things arenot what we once had

But did we even have anything ?

Except for those damned cold night memories!!

N I will walk off cuz I wanna b able 2 face the mirror

When I stand infronta it not 2day but    …. some years later.

Ode 2 a Traitor

U owe to her, those promises

Which u once boasted about

Which now r chained in ur fences

Who knows when would they come out?

U owe to her “ a last goodbye kiss

A diamond necklace, a finger ring

Your house’s keys n ur so mean heart”

Who knew u could lie this hard

U owe to her  loads – the stars, the moon

Which once u said would surely come true

Like Science made TNT N Atom Bombs

Like Chemists made switchers n drugs

Man made a peace loving heart

Which kills n commits suicide when it loves

She owes to u, oh betrayer!

2 get her besotted 2 a strayer

2 giv her dose nice, unforgetful days

No matter now they would never cum her way

U came like spring

2 harness her love

N left this bird

With broken wings

An elegiac – sad pain in her poems

Cant u feel or u don’t feel like to?

U enjoyed  and now u have walked off

N was that what u were born to do?

When u c her eyes swollen

N her heart findin men filthy

N her emotions have got her broken

N with all dis, don’t u ever feel guilty???

U gave her joys, those of friendly cheers

A love bestowed, n a guy so dear

N now, a sinking heart with emotions so strong

Tears like blood so eminent to flow

As a bird with broken wings

May try – but can never fly

As all the leaves in Autumn

May try – but wind takes them for a flight

As a sinkin ship n a breakin home

May try – but its impossible 2 survive

N like 'em she may try but would end up in pain

N all her emotions would go in vain

B’cuz of a lover like u, she would pay

N would never love again !!

Those dark nights!

Those dark  nights  drowned by my tears

Those stupid love songs which tore my ears

Those uncountable wishes I made from the Moon

Wonderin’ would I eva  get over u!

Ur  sweet words melted my line b/w stupidity n sense

Ur  friends sat there makin fun of my innocence

N I darkened my imaginations wondering what would u do

If I die somehow, but I was never alive for u!

N I sat there thinkin wud u too b thinkin of me?

So now u have many haters including me

Dose pens which I emptied writin songs on u

Dose friends of mine who died listenin about u

Those stars I avoided for the moon

And 4 all of them, i would be comin soon.

Little plastic horses

Medicines for a patient

Treatment for the injured

Lives for a nation

But what’s for a broken heart?

It’s a vex that humans have developed!

They fuckin live with their fake faces on.

Fake love has always worked!!

Unfortunately, not on humans, but on pet dogs!

Desert woes

I hug my folded legs to my chest

I wish I was never caught in this desert

I have been dying for 1 drop of water n breath

Hw ironical, 4 my eyes shed oceans!

I have been aiming to be a star

Inspite Knowing how stars break down 2 pieces

N I thank god 4 who I am, with all my heart

- no actually, with whatever’s left of it .