Hey!
I am plain writing. I think I wanna pen my feelings... I don't know where to start or how to shape it, it's been too long I wrote or read a good article. So this started after I saw a movie, and It made me cry. I am not a crier, I don't cry often or too easily. I am pretty strong.
The movie is called Picture Perfect, So in short what I noticed in this movie was - Kate (Jennifer Aniston) is a Good Girl to a Bad Guy but a Bad Girl to a Good Guy.
And I noticed I have had so many of these characters in my life. I hate how much power does one human have over another... but they so casually fail to use it, in a good, happy way.
I'm done dreamin' old dreams, wishin' old wishes, like hopin' you'ld be back again!
I hate how they can make your day by just a Hey there! text and you can be passing smiles at your recently made enemies and baffle them as to wtf's up.
I hate how they can make you wait for a text for over a week and then bump into you at a party and act like everything's just the same and pick up feelings from right where they dropped them, the last time that they met you.
I hate humans and their imbecilic lack of intellect.
Everyone is waiting for a miracle instead of being a miracle or their Mr/Ms Right to walk in, instead of being one. Everyone says they would make such a great husband but they just have not found the right one yet, So who are all those different women every night of the week? Friends?
Who are these women that tag pictures with you on Facebook? Friends?
Did you ever try to know anything about them, other than how it feels to be inside of them?
Did you ever try to study each one's psychology? How all of them are same yet so different. Did you even try to know them? like them? know how different each one of them is, how special one of them can be to you? Did you try to know how she peels oranges in a single strip, how everything heart-breaking never destroys her, how positive she is, how everyone other than you is in love with her, how crazy she is.
Eventually one of the two things will happen. He will realize you're worth it, or you'll realize he isn't!
Do you know she has had a tongue piercing? or that She is a Goddess of positivism and you make her so cynical.. and you wring her brain like you wring your damp hand-towel. Do you know you make her sick and everytime that she still gives you another chance, you never fail to disappoint her. Do you know all her friends hate you? Do you know she was a goth once? or that she wanted to worship the Satan? or that she wanted to be everything a person can be? Have you ever discussed her dreams or told yours, like normal people do. Do you know anything about her, other than..
Today I thought of you when I realized I hadn't thought of you at all!
Did you ever wonder why she is next to you after how you take your end minute trips and never tell her in advance... but why will you, right? why should you? I mean, you are not tied down to her. Your name means Free, and thus you are.
Y'know they are the type who would go to a Restaurant and want what is being eaten by the other guy in the Restaurant and not what they ordered, I hate how they can mean so much to you but not even appreciate it.
I hate how they can wake up one day and text you to tell you that they are leaving your country... for good and when you get all heart-broken like a pup and they sense it, they will tell you that they will miss you like crazy but would do nothing to change it. They will tell you they are leaving your country and then will actually do it. I hate how they never realize how much you like them when you are at their doorsteps at quarter to 12 in the midnight on a Wednesday night for their Thursday birthday, with a cake, in your favourite beautiful blue Maxi dress and matching blue ear-rings... and being the only one there.
And then you sleep together, and then he forgets to drop you to your car... But calls you next day, but don't get your hopes high, only to ask if the cake is eggless??? cuz his colleague is a vegetarian.
And then go out the Thursday night on their birthday, with their friends (All girls) and not even invite you.
Respectful.
He was playing all these games and I didn't even know their names or the rules!
And I hate how goodbyes feel, they hurt my throat. and I hate all those people who choose to say goodbyes without hoping they didnt have to.
What did you really think she was gonna do, she's a real woman, not a doormat for you!
I wish they are happy wherever they are and I also wish I never meet any such, in my future. This is one basket of men that I think are confused, disgusting, immoral and possess anything but a heart... and I am the happy, free-spirit who would want nice people around me, and not people who calculate others or don't get attached or say "I miss you!" and make your day and change your mood and push you a further deeper in like with him and bring on those puppy eyes in you, without they even understanding the second word of the text they just sent!
Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically! To those who hardly think about us in return.
They are a whole new race.
They take nothing from you, maybe the jewelry you left behind at their place the other night (and they never tried to return it to you)... and they leave you with finding their look-alikes worth five looks.
Hate em.
