Saturday, February 26, 2011

Break Hearts like breadsticks!

 Heyyy
I am writin this one as if I am writin a letter to someone… =)
Well! There are a few Things I need to do, by the end of 3 years… of which 1 would be in college.
Before that, I just wanna talk about this character.. cuz I just watched Pride and Prejudice – the keira knightly one. And  you know it’s a little co-incidental or celestially hinted but.. the first time I read this novel, it did not feel like it was the first time I read it… and Elizabeth Bennet did not startle me or impress me as an unconventional lady of her time as it did to my colleagues and professors. 
I felt that’s how a girl should be, that’s how any female should be. I already was that, and I still am. 
She is smart, witty, brave, independent.
She is personally proud of her mental quickness (Just like Me, cuz i keep tellin assholes that they should know I am pretty sharp and i get what they do at my back!) and her acuity in judging the social behaviour and intentions of others.
 She is strong enough to stand for herself with the strongest powers against her.. and can pretty much scare the authorities, whoever they maybe. 
And that scares the normal lot of ordinary men, but then who wants to be with the ordinary men?? 
Not me, Not Lizzy! We have our Mr. Darcy somewhere.

I remember there was this time… I broke up with a guy texting “I cant date u cuz u r rich.” 
And of course he saw my disappointment and said "No.. I am poor."
But anyway I saw the same shit in the movie… it never fails to amaze me how similar we are… and it amazes me even more for she is the only such character and is regarded as the most admirable and endearing of Jane Austen's heroines and the most beloved in British literature.. and she is popular cuz people think she is different from the female specie.. but that’s wrong, cuz honestly! Every girl should be like that.. proud enough of herself and amiable but proud! 
You don’t need to be pretty or rich by birth or fortune or connections, to be proud of yourself.. you just need to value yourself cuz u r worth it. And you don’t need any of all of that to feel happy. You just need confidence and that comes when you know you are so different from others. And I always you knew I was.. always. But I never looked down on anyone, maybe cuz they looked happy, loud and normal… but they looked the same.. thought the same.. stuck up on materialism. They measured people and weighed them on their world-o-meter, they would rather be judgmental than let it pass by, they would rather care about their car or something materialistic than someone whose emotions they are treading on after knowing their position, which is right on them as they walk on.
Well! I have seen this world enough .. and I would not judge them cuz they are all the same.. all of them.. they are on the same page, same level.. they make themselves happy by telling themselves how better they are.. by this or that, in this or that. But trust me, they are but ONE with difference of name and face.. but their hearts are all same. Lucky them, if they had hearts in place of their face, you might not even wanna sit with them… cuz their hearts are dirty-looking… and someone might be faceless (Read heartless) !
So how do you tell a good guy from the bad?
The truth from the lies?
The ONE from all the others?
Guess, we don’t know. And guess we actually, totally do!
I know.. and I am just 21. It’s a pretty young age for that.. and I cant be happier. I am not letting an asshole walk into my life to turn it upside down.. I wont. I am starting to fit in so well in my couch called life.. and Iam settling all the things in my room… my life looks perfect.. I am gonna be interning with HT Media – marketing side from this week.. I am downloading movies, staying up late watching them, reading romantic novels, sneaking in Lazy everynight, sneaking him out before anyone wakes up, hanging out with friends, laughing, dreaming… I wont let anyone , ANYONE break this.
I digress..
So, Have you ever been lied to by someone you trusted completely?
And have your little heart thrown out and shoved back down into your throat?
Guess, we all have.. by one or many.. every now and then. It’s a game! You are either playing it or being played. You know which side should you be at! I am not even saying anything!! :P
 And it just sucks how many people do we fall for before we actually find the one.. But I think when someone turns out to be completely different than what you thought… it does not really count! So you actually fell for someone you thought them to be, not for them!
Anyway, I have to accomplish quite a few things before the next three years.
1.       Horse Riding.. its just a Victorian, Elizabethan Era that’s got into me.. and I always wanted to be a jockey.. and braid my horse’s hair.
2.       Belly- Dancing.
3.       Be a more confident corporate chic in my field.
4.       Buy my car… that (fingers crossed) would be a BMW (even if its 3series.. m pretty happy with that too =) )
5.       Be a smarter, happier, nicer person.
6.       DON’T DATE. If he is THE ONE for you… you wont be able to resist him, anyway.. the whole weak knees, heart playing hopscotch thing would make sense.  
You can always not be a prisoner to urges but u cant help being a prisoner to Mr Darcy :P .
And if he is not.. he would let you go.. he wont care. Cheap guys have eyes on more than 1 chic at a time.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Effete Men.



These Effete Men want Women! Laugh! 


Weird, how perspectives change.. I had seen effete guys with such cute eyes earlier in my this poem
2 start it off, I must tell u.. Its all but imagination of mind that makes him , capital H-I-M, deludes u into believing what no one else sees... and maybe find u stupid for dating your capital H-I-M, him for them.. and U find them blind for not understanding WHY he is HE....
and it takes a blow from him in your abdomen when u expected it the least to realize HE is nothing but a he... or in my case.. A Lot Like She... and funny How I wrote him this poem, and many more though...but I'll just link one now.. Dont have heart enough to go through them again and laugh at myself...! so that poem is - Love
SO FUCKING IRONIC!!!!
Well ! there is this new kind of men I have recently (blame my lack of exposure) encountered... and got to know too well... which is of course as the name of this post suggests *Effete Men*.. lol.. well! maybe I should take off *Men* cuz the two are like saying loyal boyfriends... or straight curls.
I dislike them.
Where are those impeccably, raw-ly-dressed, wildly-successful, reserved, no-gossip, no-bitching, no-back-biting, no-cheating, aggressive, passionate , sexy-to-the-end-of-the-world, Hotty-with-a-body-kinda men???


dead and gone.


I don't like the no aggression, soft soppy voices, gentle touching and spending hours 2dress up type.
they make me siiiickkkkk to every drop of pouring rain.


I dont know if it is with these effete men or this new in-thing with guys... They show ur texts around!!!!!
Which *G.U.Y* does that?????????
I mean, I was sitting with people... and my ex (*The Cheat Machine*) says 
"Yes! U said it... Yes Yes U did.... Wait! Should I show them that You DID say that to Me... I have your text.. Lemme just find it." 
and busied himself in drowning himself  in his phone to find my text! Oh! how I wish he had met a whirlpool and fucking died in there. No! actually I dont hate him anymore. He is just my piece of joke... or piece of rant.. nothing too important that I would throw any extreme amount of emotions his way. Not anymore!


Well~! I was S.H.O.C.K.E.D - T.O - E.V.E.R.Y - S.H.O.C.K.A.B.L.E - P.O.S.S.I.B.L.E - N.E.R.V.E - O.F - M.Y - M.I.ND - A.N.D - B.O.D.Y.
So shocked.. that all that came out of my mouth was "Dont be a girl!!"
Shit, and I thought I had met and seen all the gay guys... Scary. For one second I was wallowing in self-loathing for have fallen for HIM!!! for this girlier-than-you,-baby guy infront of me.... Like WHO DOES THAT???? 
For one minute I hated every part of Me to have thought HIM the God of all the men in the world... Really?Who was I kidding??? God of MEN???


and then the sadistic touch to this type.
They LOVE to listen to how attached U are to them, how U cant live without them, how crazy U r about them... to just walk on!
Like who does that?????
Who asks u 2 open up.. so they can walk away effortlessly.. Well! we know the answer.. lol


They would hate you for not opening up, not letting them in, not feeling, not letting your guard down... fuck it.


They are so emotional... they get hurt by the smallest thing U dont even know u r doing... and go out there and cheat on you.. like they are Sheikhs and they gotta do it. Its part of their bringing up.. Well! maybe it really is!!!!


There is a funnier part... what guy does not like to handle a crazy girl??? Well again we knnow the answer *Effete Men*
If I were a guy, Gawsh! I would date the craziest chic ever, and handle her and do all the crazy things tohether... and laugh about them later. cuz as they say *Genius and madness are akin*
anyday a crazyyy but a boring person 4 me. Yeah... Effete men *hate* to tread the road less traveled for there might be *danger adventure, might give them an adrenaline rush... which they hate.. cuz that makes them scared... they cant handle trouble.. they are too girly for that.
Honestly.. hang out with your moms, Effys... They will never dislike you for becoming a daughter to her. NEVER.


Good Luck. Good Riddance!


P. S. I cant stooop listening to Love the way U lie - part I and II.. and I cant stooppp myself from wondering is Eminem the only haughty guy alive?? with those sexy eyes... and violent passionate angry streak to him that makes him soo sexy? 
AND I also wonder where do these Effys hide their teddies???

Time 2 re-string that barb wire fence round my heart




Well! I followed a few blogs today… so thought why not make my blog my journal too!
Cant pretty much write a poem everytime I wanna pen these feelings right?
So I have been unwell pretty much this whole month.. except for every now and then when God thought it kind enough to bestow his grace of health on Me.
I  just registered myself on eHarmony.com !! 
hahaha u wont find THE ONE unless u check *everywhere* for him! ;)
I am feeling better ..its 5 am in the morning IST btw.. been awake reading blogs since 10pm last night..
So yeah Its nice to see there are heaps of girls out there with ditto same problems that I have, who think it is *just as hard* to fight them as I think mine are. But now, I think maybe I don’t have any problem… well! What is my problem.. some stupid average-looking jerk I met.. and thought maybe he is THE ONE for me? Honestly…. M I kidding myself???

I mean, even when we were on…. I couldnot have told my friends that I was dating him, Cuz There were people who would've killed me if they had heard that we were back together... again.
The whole back and forth thing they were sick of, and so was I.  This whole "keeping it quiet" thing was the downfall. cuz I cant be the type of girl who will be ok dating without naming it…exclusive of course!and then his whole extra active hormones... yeah! u know what I am coming to... his Cheating Affairs.. Well , lets just call Him *The Cheat Machine*. I was SICK AND TIRED to every muscle in my body to smell cheating once in 2 months.
AND just so that u know, my intuition power is beyond correct!
and still i had taken this whole new avatar of God..of second chances! 
Instead of feeling grateful and loved to have his GOSC(God of second chances) by his side.. physically and mentally... he started taking me for granted! Like, I was the GOSC who forgave his every fuck up.. whether it was not replying to texts for 2 days or making me cry and not running after me to make up for it or it was eyeing another chic or "having a little fling". Ohh! thank my good manners, I never beat the shit out of him!

And then he comes up with a more fucked up idea than what he already is… that is, lets err stay the-glorious-word *friends*!
Cuz that would “keep me around you…always!”  and the same cliché’ that these jerks have been using since Victorian Era “Lets keep in touch”
. Uhh... .righttt..... like I will be dumb-head enough anymore to continue to waste my time doing that. I will be too busy with better people and better things. For I am well worth it.
And I have learnt it the *light* way - *I will never in my life give a second chance to any guy… unless he really deserves.

And like a free spirited mind I have, I rambled on to what car I wanna buy when I’ld start earning.. well, so *My first car would be BMW , though 3series Coroporate… in max 4 years from now…
OORRR if i dont have the moolah, Purple Civic.. I have an uncanny attachment to this car.
And another thing *if a guy sings me Justin Bieber’s “One Less Lonely Girl” or Bon Jovi’s “I’ll be there for You”.. my heart would melt =)) <3 and because my Perfect Stranger wont know about my blog.. so he must be luuuckkkyy enough to come up with any of these songs… :))
And another thing…*I wanna sing I don’t wanna Miss a Thing with Steven Tyler once… and Sweet Thing with Keith Urban.. I would give ANYTHING for a song with them… or maybe a kiss too … aaaaaaaaaaaaawwww!
*I love dressing up… that’s my new thing.



 and i have a little crush on this boy from Seattle :P
he is soooooo cute... and i cant stop myself to wonder how cute his American sexy carefree accent must be! I am skyping him all night these days! well, maybe life takes a painful turn so that you can realize its NOT THAT painful, actually :)
so we were just discussing how vulnerable I am to heart-breaks.. and he said the cutest thing to Me... either it is my soft inclination towards him that makes it cute... or the way he says *everything* ouch! attachment, again! not  a good idea!

 Seattle Boy:  Let them in but don't let your guard down, you should be able to kick them out anyday
Keep your shit straight have some rules you go by don't disclose them 
And if you see him fuckup once.. bye bye 
Man up . Dont be a girl


and he can actually make me quit smoking... with the kinda thing he says... aaaaaaaw!!!
ONLY if he stayed a little closer... i dont ,at all, mind considering moving up there...(yeah dirtily too! ) if we ever part ways, i would atleast have my very favourite, i.e. Snow!

AND then there is this guy.... my ex.... like we dated when we were kids. He is so mature and grown up, now. Its cute! lets call him , Lets name him *Young Moolah* cuz he is of my age and is totally into rapping.. he has even sung his original covers. 
He looks, speaks, smiles, talks EXACTLY like Ashton Kutcher. And i have the biggest possible crush on Ashton. And maybe we might just end up having our own *A Lot Like Love* <3


I have thought so wrong abut him .. all these years. He is totally attractive, has those dark black puppy eyes that make u wanna fall in love with them *too bad I wont now* and his heavily husky voice and Indian-American accent and a touch of hip-hop to it makes him so irresistible. * too bad I would* And I told him I am not dating any guy anysoon... I cant afford another drama of gettin attached then getting detached.. and he went like "Dont worry, I am always there. though more than a friend." aaaaawww! but i didnt show that his words make me go weak in the knees!
He is so corporate smart... and i remember one day, when I asked him about internship jobs.. he gave me the link... and i went like 
Me: "Did u go on google... n found this link.. n copied n pasted it for me?"
YM: "Yes"
Me: "Thats so nice of U!"
maybe i wasnot used 2 being treated like that with my ex *The Cheat Machine* around.. of course, he didnot have enough time to manage amongst so many girls he was jumbling at the same time! 
YM: lmao


later last night, when we were chatting.. I asked him
ME: "U should read my poems , if u wanna know how sad I am"
YM: "I dont wanna know how sad u r. I will show u how happy u r"


that was the sweeeetest thing i had heard in a long long long time of more than 2 years!


annnnddd there is *Fab* .. met him just once... but he is one of the sweetest guys ever.



Fab:  February 12 at 3:43am Report

u can definitely move on... look at u... u give life to others.. noone can take it from u ...

Me:  February 12 at 3:44am
i dont give life to anyone. 

Fab: February 12 at 3:49am Report
u obviously dont do that intentionally...!! u wudnt ever realise also for that matter... 
I really dont know wat u r goin thru nw... but I want to take u away from it...

Me:  February 12 at 4:06am
ill try

Fab: February 12 at 4:09am Report
shutup n do it now! wat try.. aint askin u to win d PGA tour!


Well! there are some guys who give you a mile when you give them an inch... and then there are some whom you give 10 billion acres and , not a single muscle in their body would budge. argh, sickness.

 Thats for todaybuenas noches :*

WHAT GIRLS WANT GUYS TO KNOW:



1. We don't like it when you hold our hand, we ♥ it. 

2. We're not all high maintenance. Seriously, who spends five hours
getting ready every day?  If I'm not going anywhere, I'm not putting much
effort into how I look, unless I just want to feel cute.

3. Cheesy and corny is adorable. Seriously.

4. We like it if you're a dork because we are too, so we can be dorks together :)

5. We think you are unbelievably complicated too. Trust me.

6. We can like blood and gore too, but even if we aren't scared,
we'll still act like we are ;)

7. Usually "I'm fine" means "I'm not at all okay"You see, not all of us are drama queens,
so we don't want to come off as one. Also, we don't like being vulnerable.

8. There are some things you just shouldn't say to a girl if you are in a relationship
with someone else. Like: you're beautiful, I really like talking to you, you're amazing...
need I say more?We can't help but  read into these things, especially if we want more
than anything for you to really mean them.

9. If we cry in front of you, whatever happened to us must have
been really bad or have hurt us a lot.

10. If you sing to us, even if you're not very good at it, we're like putty in your hands.
 
Not even joking.

11. Don't treat us differently in front of your friends. If they're really your friends,
why would you have to act different?

12. We like hugs. They make us feel safe.

13. We might watch the game with you, if you watch The Notebook [or whatever] with us.
Some of us do actually enjoy watching the game with you though,
so don't be too shocked if we slip on a team jersey.

14. Sometimes when you tell us we're pretty and we fight with you and
say we're not, it's because we really don't believe that we are.

15. You don't just date us, you date our best friend too.

16. We love your hoodies WAY more than our own. Mostly because they smell like you.

17. It's not mandatory for you to text, call, or IM first... but we really like it when you do.

18. If you can make us laugh or smile a lot, we're practically yours already.

19. If we smile a lot when we're around you and you ask us what we're smiling
about and we say "nothing" or "no reason"... you're probably the reason.

20. We really do dream about being kissed in the pouring rain.

21. It really annoys us when you blame everything on pms or say it can't be that bad.
 Imagine what it might feel like to have someone punch you in the abdomen
multiple times for 4-7 days. Yeah.

22. We love getting flowers for no reason. It doesn't even have to be
a whole bouquet. One flower for no reason would be just as sweet.

23. We love your eyes.

24. We like it when you play with our hair, so go ahead.

25. We're never really too old for stuffed animals, especially if they're from you :)

26. We really do like it when you open doors for us... :)

27. When we say we're cold, that is most likely your cue to hold us.

28. We like when guys smell good. That doesn't mean bathe in your
cologne though, so please don't. You like when we smell good
without choking you, we like the same thing.

29. We really do appreciate it when you try to cheer us up when we're
feeling down about something [even if it doesn't seem like that big a deal].
We will remember and try to return the favor.

30. If you aren't honest with us and we know it, it hurts our feelings.

31. Words like beautiful, pretty, cute, and the like are much
preferred over words like hot or sexy.

32. It's cute when you notice our bored or nervous habits.
We notice yours too and most likely find them adorable.

33. We like it when you kiss us on the forehead :) it's sweet.

34. When we say we miss you, we mean it and
you have no idea how much.

35. If you like us, tell us because eventually we
cant take mixed signals anymore.

Quotes


It's funny how when you finally get over someone,

you start seeing them in a whole new perspective.
It's like you're looking at them through the eyes
 of your best friend, and you realize, he's nothing special.
He's just another ordinary boy




Because in every relationship there comes a point when the damage is too much and no matter how good it once was, the memories can't sustain you. you have to save yourself knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. because you can't keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return.




You want to be the last person he thinks about before he falls asleep. You want to be his first thought when he wakes up. You want to be the one he texts or calls when he's bored. You want to get hearts from him through text. You want to take cute pictures with him, put them on facebook or myspace and show how happy and cute you are together. You want him to make your ex think: "what the fuck did I do?" you want him to hold you tight, never let go, and never hurt you like the one before him did.


Feelings never do make sense. They get you all confused. Then they drive you around for hours before they drop you right back where you started.


Crying doesn't indicate that you're weak. since birth, it has always been a sign that you're alive.


Here’s to the girls that gave him their whole heart just to have it smashed. The ones who couldn't even talk to their best friends about it because it seemed stupid not to be over him yet. Here's to you.



Of course you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better the next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then, one day, someone will come along, and it'll all pay off, and 

no one will ever break your heart again.



Cracks in the concrete are just reminders:
you fall apart no matter how strong you are.

You know, there are some guys... some guys who'll take a mile when you give them an inch. And then there are the guys who you give 10 billion acres, and they don't fucking move a muscle



I've never even wanted to second guess what we have but you seem to do it everyday. You never know what you want from me, one day I’m perfect and the next I’m below average. Just make up your freaking mind because mine's been the same from the start.

The great thing about being a girl is... even when boys break your heart, you have your girls to relate too. And they're the ones that will really cheer you up and remind you of the happiness you need.

it’s because of you. And she's going to break up with the next guy because ofyou. And the guy after that. She's going to keep doing it because for some reason, you’re the one she's supposed to be with.





Don't say that. Don't say that it didn't mean anything. Listen to me, if you've thought about her everyday or if you memorized her laugh, then at onepoint, she must've meant something to you.


"Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. if you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore."



I want to do the same thing you did to me
Lead you on, make you fall and then just let go



you can't let yourself fall for the same shit over and over. you can't allow it to trap you up, and suffocate you until you say what it wants you to say. you can't allow yourself to say yes everytime and fall into its arms. you need to get a grip on yourself because each time you say yes, you know for sure it's going to end up with tears on your side. you know it's a constant cycle, and it's bound to happen again. seriously, get a fucking grip on yourself and walk away when you still can. because it's a monster. it can kill you. love doesn't die, but it will tear you apart


If he misses you, he'll call just to hear your voice. If he wants you, he'll say it. And if he cares, he'll show it. If he has a thought about you, it will come out of his mouth. If you are on his mind non-stop, he will do anything he can just to see you. If he truly likes you, he won't let get anything in the way and fight back just to keep you in his arms. If not, he can't be worth your time because you're obviously not worth his.

I'm scared to move on because I'm worried that the second I'm happy with someone else, you'll pop up and ruin it. Ruin it by telling me that you want me, and that you're sorry, and that you like me 'kinda a lot' and that you miss me 'kinda a lot.' I'm worried that I'll get so confused because I'll be so happy with him, but of course I'll still want you, and that will make me start crying all the time, end up losing the best relationship I ever had, just to have you get bored again and leave again. The worst part about all of this? I can see you doing it, because you want me hooked, you want me as an option, even if it is an option you'll never take.

I guess the real fact of the matter is, we don't know what tomorrow's going to bring and the only thing we really have is right now. So, don't stay mad fortoo long. Learn to forgive. Love with all your heart. Stay up all night. Have fun. Live your life the way you want to live it. Don’t worry about people thatdon't like you. Enjoy the ones who do. Have a crush. Kiss a boy. Just live lifethe way you want and you'll be happy with and don't let anyone tell you you're doing it wrong.




Do you want to know the truth? I'm scared, okay? I'm terrified to get too close to you because I don't want to get my heart broken. I'm afraid that if we take this further, I'm just going to get hurt and to be honest, I don't think I could take that.


What’s the point? I mean, why do I put myself through this? I watched you break my heart and throw the pieces on the floor. And then I picked them up and handed them right back to you. I think that makes me stupid. I mean, seriously, I actually trusted you. And even when you disappointed me, I gave you another chance. That must make me the most foolish person in the world...or maybe that makes me the girl who loves you more than she loves herself.


If you think that the person you love doesn't love you back then you areright.
Because if they do, they would never let you think that way.




At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. it's not like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.


Prove to me you're not average and we will be on the same page. The onlydifference I see in guys is that they all got different names.

Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stop of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longerin need of your company.



There’s a guy out there who’s going to be really happy you didn’t get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend.

Go after her. Fuck, don't sit there and wait for her to call. Go after her because that's what you should do if you love someone. Don't wait for them to give you a sign, 'cause it may never come. 
 There are people I might have loved if they had gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they needed to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this. 
I always thought I'd be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest. Making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can't just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone's idea of love, but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone really is. That is raw and that is unguarded and all that is really worth anything. Really.





I`ve learned that no matter how much you care, some people don`t deserve you. I`ve learned that it takes years to build up trust & it only takes suspicion, not proof to destroy it. I`ve learned that you shouldn`t compare yourself to others, they are probably more screwed up than you think. I`ve learned that the people you care about in life are taken away from you too soon &; all the less important ones just never go away.




If he likes you, if he really likes you,
you shouldn't have to send more than one text.



i really want to get in his head, and know if it's really over.. because to me,it's not. and i know if he came back right now i'd drop everything, that's so sad to say.. i probably still would, even a year from now, and that's even sadder.. probably would until i found something remotely close to what i had with him.


You don’t want to let people in. It’s hard for you. And once you let those people in, you don’t want to let them go. And when they fuck up, it’s like, why would you do that to me? Like I gave you my feelings, I did everything for you, and you still screwed me over. It’s like you wish they were a better person.


And remember, you’re still young enough to fall in and out of love a few more times before you get it just right. It doesn’t sound fun but trust me; 
it’s worth it every single time.




It’s funny how the less you talk, the more you begin to realize it was not meant to be. It’s funny how slow it began, and how fast it ended. It’s funny how in the beginning he liked you, but in the end he liked someone else. It’s funny how he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

The greatest revenge to a girl that steals your man is to let her have him, because a truly good man can never be stolen.


I'm the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. I'm the girl who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers. I'm the girl who wouldn't make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you happy. I'm the girl who would enjoy having a movie night rather than going to some fancy restaurant. I'm the girl who would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. I'm the girl who won't make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your hand instead. I'm the girl who will love you more than anyone could possibly dream of. I'm the girl who would give the world the world to see you smile. I'm the girl who cries herself to sleep at night thinking of you, when I know I'm the last thing on your mind. I'm the girl who feels alone, even in a crowded room. Yeah, I'm that girl.



If there’s anything I’ve learned in this whole getting over you process, it’s that your always going to mean something to me no matter what happens. Your always gonna be somewhere deep down inside me. Even when I’m happily married to the man of my dreams, if I were to run into you on the street and those gorgeous blue eyes were to meet mine, my heart would skip a beat because I’ll never forget you and the way you made me feel when we were young &; stupidly in love.

Your right. I hate letting people in. I hate opening up to them and letting my guard down. But maybe that’s because whenever I decide, “Oh, this boy isn’t gonna break my heart,” they do.

I'm moving on. No more waiting. No more hurt. If you wanted me you could've had me, but you didn't. You blew your chances. Now, I hope you're happy living your lifewondering "What if you took your chances with me?" cause I'm no longer here.  I am no longer waiting.



at some point you have to realize he doesnt care
and you could be missing out on somone who does.




You made your choice, and it wasn't me. So if one day you try to come back and the choice is mine, it won’t be you. Karma hurts, baby





After a while, you learn the difference between holding a hand, and falling in love. You'll learn kisses don't always mean something. Promises can be broken just as easily as they were made, and as hard as it is to believe, sometimes goodbyes are forever











I'm tired of getting my hopes up; I'm tired of hoping this time would be different. I'm tired of falling in and out of love. I'm tired of being played with and playing with peoples hearts. I'm tired of being just friends, and hoping for so much more. I'm tired of it all; I'm tired of being tired.





She wouldn't care if you called her & woke her up just to talk at two in the morning.She loves arguing, & she's good at it. Scary movies make her paranoid. She hates it when people don't call her back. She envies every couple she sees walking aroundshowing their happiness. She only wants to be happy & lately all she thinks about is you.






Don't worry babe, you will see me again.

You'll see me with a guy who treats me right.

One that knows how to love me. 

You'll see all you could have had. n; you'll regret. 

Regret like hell. 

Regret letting me go.

But the thing I want you to see the most? 
You'll see; I survived without you.
Some point, you've got to man up and JUMP.
You've got to quit being scared of the "maybes" and "what-ifs"
And just freaking jump.
Quit cheating yourself out of the best thing that could ever happen to you,
quit cheating him out of what he's wanted for so long, and just falll.
Fall hard, fall long, and fall forever.

Gurkirat: Keep your shit straight have some rules you go by don't disclose them
And if you see him fuckup once bye bye
Man up . Dont be a girl

I think it's time I let you go.
And that's so hard to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life.
But the daydreaming, the running in place, it's not healthy.
So this is me, cutting the cord.
This is me doing what I should have done eight months ago:
Saying goodbye.



Don’t worry about me, my hearts not broken anymore.
You should be worrying about yourself, cause as far
as I can see, your still an asshole.