Well! I followed a few blogs today… so thought why not make my blog my journal too!
Cant pretty much write a poem everytime I wanna pen these feelings right?
So I have been unwell pretty much this whole month.. except for every now and then when God thought it kind enough to bestow his grace of health on Me.
I just registered myself on eHarmony.com !!
hahaha u wont find THE ONE unless u check *everywhere* for him! ;)
hahaha u wont find THE ONE unless u check *everywhere* for him! ;)
I am feeling better ..its 5 am in the morning IST btw.. been awake reading blogs since 10pm last night..
So yeah Its nice to see there are heaps of girls out there with ditto same problems that I have, who think it is *just as hard* to fight them as I think mine are. But now, I think maybe I don’t have any problem… well! What is my problem.. some stupid average-looking jerk I met.. and thought maybe he is THE ONE for me? Honestly…. M I kidding myself???
I mean, even when we were on…. I couldnot have told my friends that I was dating him, Cuz There were people who would've killed me if they had heard that we were back together... again.
The whole back and forth thing they were sick of, and so was I. This whole "keeping it quiet" thing was the downfall. cuz I cant be the type of girl who will be ok dating without naming it…exclusive of course!and then his whole extra active hormones... yeah! u know what I am coming to... his Cheating Affairs.. Well , lets just call Him *The Cheat Machine*. I was SICK AND TIRED to every muscle in my body to smell cheating once in 2 months.
AND just so that u know, my intuition power is beyond correct!
and still i had taken this whole new avatar of God..of second chances!
Instead of feeling grateful and loved to have his GOSC(God of second chances) by his side.. physically and mentally... he started taking me for granted! Like, I was the GOSC who forgave his every fuck up.. whether it was not replying to texts for 2 days or making me cry and not running after me to make up for it or it was eyeing another chic or "having a little fling". Ohh! thank my good manners, I never beat the shit out of him!
AND just so that u know, my intuition power is beyond correct!
and still i had taken this whole new avatar of God..of second chances!
Instead of feeling grateful and loved to have his GOSC(God of second chances) by his side.. physically and mentally... he started taking me for granted! Like, I was the GOSC who forgave his every fuck up.. whether it was not replying to texts for 2 days or making me cry and not running after me to make up for it or it was eyeing another chic or "having a little fling". Ohh! thank my good manners, I never beat the shit out of him!
And then he comes up with a more fucked up idea than what he already is… that is, lets err stay the-glorious-word *friends*!
Cuz that would “keep me around you…always!” and the same cliché’ that these jerks have been using since Victorian Era “Lets keep in touch”
. Uhh... .righttt..... like I will be dumb-head enough anymore to continue to waste my time doing that. I will be too busy with better people and better things. For I am well worth it.
And I have learnt it the *light* way - *I will never in my life give a second chance to any guy… unless he really deserves.
And like a free spirited mind I have, I rambled on to what car I wanna buy when I’ld start earning.. well, so *My first car would be BMW , though 3series Coroporate… in max 4 years from now…
OORRR if i dont have the moolah, Purple Civic.. I have an uncanny attachment to this car.
And another thing *if a guy sings me Justin Bieber’s “One Less Lonely Girl” or Bon Jovi’s “I’ll be there for You”.. my heart would melt =)) <3 and because my Perfect Stranger wont know about my blog.. so he must be luuuckkkyy enough to come up with any of these songs… :))
And another thing…*I wanna sing I don’t wanna Miss a Thing with Steven Tyler once… and Sweet Thing with Keith Urban.. I would give ANYTHING for a song with them… or maybe a kiss too … aaaaaaaaaaaaawwww!
*I love dressing up… that’s my new thing.
Seattle Boy: Let them in but don't let your guard down, you should be able to kick them out anyday
Keep your shit straight have some rules you go by don't disclose them
And if you see him fuckup once.. bye bye Man up . Dont be a girl
He looks, speaks, smiles, talks EXACTLY like Ashton Kutcher. And i have the biggest possible crush on Ashton. And maybe we might just end up having our own *A Lot Like Love* <3
I have thought so wrong abut him .. all these years. He is totally attractive, has those dark black puppy eyes that make u wanna fall in love with them *too bad I wont now* and his heavily husky voice and Indian-American accent and a touch of hip-hop to it makes him so irresistible. * too bad I would* And I told him I am not dating any guy anysoon... I cant afford another drama of gettin attached then getting detached.. and he went like "Dont worry, I am always there. though more than a friend." aaaaawww! but i didnt show that his words make me go weak in the knees!
YM: "Yes"
Me: "Thats so nice of U!"
maybe i wasnot used 2 being treated like that with my ex *The Cheat Machine* around.. of course, he didnot have enough time to manage amongst so many girls he was jumbling at the same time!
YM: lmao
later last night, when we were chatting.. I asked him
ME: "U should read my poems , if u wanna know how sad I am"
YM: "I dont wanna know how sad u r. I will show u how happy u r"
that was the sweeeetest thing i had heard in a long long long time of more than 2 years!
annnnddd there is *Fab* .. met him just once... but he is one of the sweetest guys ever.
Fab: February 12 at 3:43am Report
u can definitely move on... look at u... u give life to others.. noone can take it from u ...
Me: February 12 at 3:44am
i dont give life to anyone.
Fab: February 12 at 3:49am Report
u obviously dont do that intentionally...!! u wudnt ever realise also for that matter...
I really dont know wat u r goin thru nw... but I want to take u away from it...
Me: February 12 at 4:06am
ill try
Fab: February 12 at 4:09am Report
shutup n do it now! wat try.. aint askin u to win d PGA tour!
Well! there are some guys who give you a mile when you give them an inch... and then there are some whom you give 10 billion acres and , not a single muscle in their body would budge. argh, sickness.
Have read a few posts...babyyy.. ur thoughts...the way u xpress them is lovely.. m actually becuming ur fan :) thnks fr letting me enter ur world!!:D
ReplyDeletem glad tht i gt the oppurtunity f knowing u.. u r a swthrt!! N m sure u ll get ur prince charming :) :)
at point f time,while reading ur blog.. i felt.. like u r speaking my head.. wat once happened,is happening.. describing all f that so clearly.. like all dat jus happening rite in front of me.. LIVE!!
And feel like saving a few lines fr future refrence :P :P
Thnks fr Making me know myself better.. :)
All in all gr8 xpression.. gr88888 blog...
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ReplyDeletechuck the old box out ya... u actually have interesting guys in ur life. like Mr Seattle and Young Mullah.. they are so developed and have a charming and attrctive personalities .. if dey were to wok down a ccd , dey wud hav kept u frm lukin arnd unless u were nervous and wanted air in. Life is abt fun lovin n funny ppl arnd who u cn rely on.
ReplyDeleteAshton is definetly very cute.. cuter is his smile ;) :)
ReplyDeletewe do have or can find interesting guys around, but are these kinds reliable in long run? can we trust our life, our hearts with them? are these worth the risk??
seriously, all guys are same ... with different names.
ReplyDeleteso y not cry for a sexier one ;)
ReplyDeleteall guys r the same ?
ReplyDeleteu belong to the lot who go " ooh all men are dogs"
and i thought dogs were the most loyal thing everr ! lol
look around you might find a nice guy, he may not b ashton kutcher or gerrad butler material thou lol
who wants to now... they r all full of shit n cheating skills.
ReplyDeletei want a guy who is bred well.. not cheap !!