Undo It

And again, I got drunk and again, I missed you,
And again, wondered if you miss me too.
(A thousand times on repeat)
I know you don't and I don't know what sucks more
That I do or that you don't?

It rained tonight, I thought of you;
I skip all these love songs cuz they remind me of you.
You turned me into an asshole but still you are all I would choose,
All I like, all I hate, got your name meaning the world to me,
I hate emotions cuz they made me a servant to you.
I hate drinking cuz it reminds me of falling in love with you;
vulnerable and weak.
I, So many times, plan to change my damn number,
But then what would that do?
You know you were the world to me.
The universe and the orbit.

The most good-looking guy was a faded colour to me,
If they compared him with your crazy eyes .
Your hands were God to me, no where was heaven but in your arms,
You chose differently, and wanted to smell a different perfume.
Now you are worse than a stranger and Idk if I wanna hug you and tell you what you mean to me,
or step on you with my heels,
All I know is you were my heaven and you chose differently.

You get it from your Father

Tell me “Losers quit” 

but ages I’d been on it, and there was not a scope to win.

Tell me “People change” 

but every smart person knows it’s just an escape from comprehending bitter things!

Now that I am all out of like with you, and my world doesn’t orbit around those silly million lies,

I see how you had me addicted to those heavy-weight arms and the way they held me at nights,

Yeah you had the green eyes charm, you were a terrible disease,

No wonder you always had me love you long after you'ld leave,

Maybe you get it from your father, they say boys do,

You know it better, cuz you happen to be one of them too!

Well you can’t shit-treat someone and demand spotless reputation,

When you were always the one holding the lighter whenever jungles caught fire,

We all know you got some crazy and its probably deeper than you would have wanted.

And now that I have over done my time, I can’t imagine what was nice about those eyes,

You had me waiting on a false promise that you later abandoned, like everything in your life,

And now that I have been too long here, I know I shoulda also walked off.. day I met you,

Well, Maybe you get it from your father, they say boys do,

You know it better, cuz you happen to be one of them too!

No Surprises

I have been in this storm for a lifetime, and Its become a home to me,

I was hoping we could make it a little less volatile, a little less lonely;

But we were burning bridges and hoping it would light the path to move on,

And then I turned around and saw I had left back my heart.

I wish there was an easy way to what I want, but there’s no way at all,

I want what I reproach, I resent what I want.

God knows, I tried to make it look pretty, lace this in pearls

In result, the wounds didn’t heal and it increased the hurt,

So I'm letting it all out in the open, and it feels like I can’t fucking feel,

There’s no surprise, people don’t come out of storms as they were last seen.