Monday, February 25, 2013
Walk away...
Its amazing how someone can mean so much to you in a couple of weeks' time,
Its amazing how someone can make you choke when he boards his flight,
its amazing how you fall in hate for your city
And forget how to keep a conversation running,
And forget how easy once it was to breathe,
Amazing how u still talk about it a year later tonight,
how it all affects you, and kills you,
And I'm sure he thinks, you hate him or feel apathy,
But its amazing how he can push you from "almost love" to "almost apathy" without realizing any of it,
how he can rain on your parade of happy hopes and emotions and not know any of it,
Its amazing how you battled all of this,
This - virtual creation of an idea that never existed, this delusion of an ideal man that he never was,
This - turmoil of rejection, being abandoned, all these pangs of emotions that you created in your head,
The hope that he might write to you, realizing how much you still like him,
The hope that he will call you on your birthday,
The hope that he will tell you that he will visit you....
But he never did, cuz he never intended to,
Cuz you made a castle of your dreams and forgot to reality check if marbles or bricks even existed..
He found a girl, In her, almost found his family,
And here you are, finally getting a grip of apathy!
Delirious with Apathy
While you ran marathons, snow-slid with someone else,
I lie here waiting for my phone to notify me of your texts,
Lately I wonder why I gave u the confidence to move on
Why I gave you the pleasure to belong to someone yet make me yours.
And you might think I found another, or hate you for what you did,
But honestly I don't blame you more than I blame myself,
For liking you more than you did,
And you walking away just showed me you never were as special as I pictured u in my head.
And I hate-talk to you when I'm sober and mush-talk to you when I'm drunk,
You don't get my deal or why m I vomitting such hurtful words,
And you don't get me, cuz you never did..
I'm just too in like with you to see you with another chic..
That I can't even sweet-text to u on the phone,
But u don't get it, like what makes me so mad,
That's just what makes me hate you more..
I've been lonely since you've been gone
To her arms, to her heart... N now that's where u belong.
But guess what, I liked u too much to attend ur funeral with tearful eyes,
Cuz u made me cry more than my share, while u r alive!
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