Walk away...

Its amazing how someone can mean so much to you in a couple of weeks' time,
Its amazing how someone can make you choke when he boards his flight, 
its amazing how you fall in hate for your city
And forget how to keep a conversation running,
And forget how easy once it was to breathe,
Amazing how u still talk about it a year later tonight,
how it all affects you, and kills you,
And I'm sure he thinks, you hate him or feel apathy,
But its amazing how he can push you from "almost love" to "almost apathy" without realizing any of it,
how he can rain on your parade of happy hopes and emotions and not know any of it,
Its amazing how you battled all of this,
This - virtual creation of an idea that never existed, this delusion of an ideal man that he never was,
This - turmoil of rejection, being abandoned, all these pangs of emotions that you created in your head,
The hope that he might write to you, realizing how much you still like him,
The hope that he will call you on your birthday,
The hope that he will tell you that he will visit you....
But he never did, cuz he never intended to,
Cuz you made a castle of your dreams and forgot to reality check if marbles or bricks even existed..
He found a girl, In her, almost found his family,
And here you are, finally getting a grip of apathy!