I say I love you

How can I say I love you, When my heart is as cold as an Ice cream cone?

How can I say I love you,  when I've said it to another before?

How can I say I love you, When its but a mood or a word or a haux?

How can I say I love you When you've said it to me before you let me go.

How can I say its forever, When my brain tells me its fucking not,

How can I say its forever, with your name on my heart and a curse on my lips?

How can I say it’s forever, without your hand in my hand but still the reason for my lack of sleep?

How to ever say it’s forever, When its never forever for anybody else?

How can I say its forever, It will only be a disgusting bitter joke.

How can I say its forever, When forever's today last for 6 months or maybe give it a month more.

Don't call me bitter or damaged or hurt or torn,

I'm not a cynic, nor heartless, nor in a war mode,

I'm wise, I'm a realist, I survive.

I take pride in being able to walk away.

I am with you, but my bags are always packed in the car, in the driveway.

I take pride in being able to dig my feelings under the earth just as well as you,

I take pride in being in control of my emotions, in not being a fool

To the shallow worldly games of people who have nothing better to do.

People like you.