Its my story with this boy in a grey laura
Who was every word of cute that made me awe
Who made my delhi nights pretty cuza his silly presence
Now I wake up to find them all pretense
From January came my months of tears,
Because of u and u wer not even here
I see no sense in being my old-self: vibrant n happy
My friends n sister have got sick worrying about me.
Everything’s a reminder of those summer-feelings, I felt
When I cried myself to sleep each night after u left
You know I have got through a lot of sad times
But unlike then, now u r not mine.
There are times when I miss you
And all that we had
I can not see myself holding someone else’s hand
It does not give a fuck to you
And weird, how it changed my whole world
I wont cry but my throat has a lump.
I wanna go back to the time with u
Where We sat in the park and u explained me ur tattoo
but that’s all just impossible.
I see you acting SOOO normal.. that I wanna hit you so bad
And there was a time when happiness was all I had
You were so nice, so lovely.. made your world around me
I was so naïve… lost my heart thinkin I was ur one and only.
I Acted like I was a flight risk… would leave you for another
but today all I have is ur memories and u have her.
i know what i have gone through
when all ur statuses talked of others only
and all my statuses were for u...
and not a single one u wrote fr me.
U had just returned to land
Lets meet up, u planned.
I texted “how long can I stay with u?”
Ur reply is a memory I just cant let go
That was da sweetest thing u ever said
U replied “till u get old……”
Do u remember, we were sittin there in ur car
U found reasons to hold my hand every now n then
And I thought I was the luckiest girl on this planet
I never realized when I fell as hard and bad as I did
When u hear “Stars go blue” song
I hope it reminds u of my Tim McGraw
And when someone calls u baby or does anything crazy
I hope It just makes u think of me
But u got secrets u never shared
And I was just a laughing stock
When it got hard to take
This is what I thought about.
Don’t fall for anyone again…Cuz they r nutin but selfish stones
Or brace urself for goodbyes… Cuz they WILL leave u alone
They would leave u with alacrity … that’s all that I have known
Next time u think u might fall for a guy…. But gladly, this next time would never b born!
But I am doing fine… it sucks how u left me for someone better
Like, we were never dating …. It was a business n u were a vulture
Looking for ur carrion, calculating in mind..
Who would be a better meal tonight!
Weird, how I once called u a vulture
And said I would be ur Carrion (click it!)
So sadly, it means, u r done eating me
And now ur search carries on!